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I am an individual who at an early age escaped death. Hit by a drunk driver, while crossing the street, I developed a strong sense of self and self purpose. I was convinced I was left on earth to to do great things. Not just great things, I was going to be Gene Simmons. Not “like” Gene Simmons, but I believed I would one day become the man himself. See for yourself. Gene 1 | Gene 2
For a great many years, this conviction drove me to accomplish a great many things. By the time I was in my mid-twenties I had done more than many people twice my age. I do not say this to brag, in fact quite the opposite. It got to the point, that I was not comfortable discussing my accomplishments. I still continued to burn the candle at both ends, but I became more private about what I was doing.
Why Addiction with a Purpose?
First let me say, I do not in any way wish to belittle the difficulty of addiction. The name simply came to me as I looked back on my life. At a very early age I became addicted to music. Not just your typical teenage crush on all things loud, but absolutely infatuated with all things to do with music – it was my absolute passion . . . you could say I was addicted. Like many, as I got older and the money started coming in, the dream of musical conquest seceded to career and family.
I have found several definitions of an addict.
- someone who is so ardently devoted to something that it resembles an addiction; “a golf addict”; “a car nut”; “a bodybuilding freak”; etc.
- to cause (someone or oneself) to become dependent (on something, especially a narcotic drug)
- someone who is physiologically dependent on a substance; abrupt deprivation of the substance produces withdrawal symptoms
I have never seen myself in the second two definitions, but I have without a doubt seen myself in definition one. However, due to a recent road-stop I am now facing a DUI. The irony and shame of this (see 1st paragraph) experience has really caused me to question some of my decisions and focus over the past several years. I am grateful that no one was hurt and I have the opportunity now to take a break and reevaluate how I want my life to be moving forward.
My goal now is to recapture that feeling I used to get from creating music and working in the theater. I have a wonderful wife and two beautiful little girls. I owe it to them as well as myself to be the best that I can be. While that sound like a slogan I am determined to do it!
My hope is that by emptying my brain on this site, I might be able to make more room for creating. I am an avid adventure motorcycle rider, photographer, video editor and musician. When I am not doing any of those thing I am a CTO and software developer focusing on software based process improvement.
I look forward to communicating with others who have struggled with addictions of any kind; positive and negative. Hopefully, this site will be place where visitors can encourage each other and inspire one another to find a positive Addiction with a Purpose!
